Empathy

so, i have jut started my new job for close to 1 week, and thats a change in my lifestyle. i have to wake up early and end work in the evening. getting used to work on the first day was quite tough, as I'm really sleepy and almost didn't wake up. what is expected of me just adds on the my stress.

today is thursday, the fourth day of work, and i slowly realised that why she is acting this way, basically she is the workforce for some time and i must say i do not fully understand what she is going through until this week. of course I'm still very fresh, but now i sort of understand why she acts this way, such as taking things slowly. which is why it made me fall in love with her even more. it takes a great deal for someone to take their time off after work just to see the one that you love, and she used to do it a lot when i was part timing last time. i just thought that i could show her some love by being there for her, at this point of her life. and i feel we understand each other better now.

its something really strange but yet warms your heart whenever you think about it, that you are always special to someone and they will be there for you. like you always said, you just lived your life differently from others, no point comparing with them. i will always keep this with me.

lets hold on to each other and treasure our time together, i love you

Slide Away - Noel Gallagher

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thanks for being here with me at my life changing moment



i love you baby

so why the name medicine goat? well its up to you to guess but i think it would be very easy to get it right haha...anyways this place is for me to document my journey with her..yes..i want to keep our experiences together like a story. I'm not really a good story teller so yea..ill try to keep it interesting..

so yeah..this year was very special for me...i found her in the most unlikely place as i expected..but i believe it was meant to be. i wouldn't have found her if i didn't left the force, i wouldn't have found her if i pick up this part time job, and i wouldn't have found her if my life was in this state. 

long story cut short, we celebrated my birthday on thursday. hahaha..she surprised me at 12am exactly..its been awhile since i really celebrated my birthday..and I'm really happy she is there for me. at night, she surprised me againnn haha...we went to watch forbidden city at esplanade. we were supposed to meet at esplanade for dinner at barossa, since I'm able to use the ns50 voucher...who would have thought she bought tickets to watch the musical hahah...i was very shocked but also kinda like it because it is something i have never done before and she is the first one to experience it with me. 

she was looking very good that night also, i couldn't stop staring at her ahaha. omg no wonder she asked me to dress up properly because we are going to a theatre. it was very cold that day as it has been raining since 5pm...was trembling when the musical finished lol..

i feel whenever I'm with her, we always will be doing something i have never done before. i really appreciate that she is trying to make me more confident in myself, and boost my courage. she has been rreally understanding and patient with me as this is my first relationship and I'm still an amateur in relationships. I'm grateful i found her at this point of my life and hope that we could build a wonderful future together...sounds soo cringey...ughhh hahaha..but yea..i hope we could build our future together